I gave myself a year. An entire year to do something. To do things. And what happened?
Nothing.
Nothing happens.
I started a DVD collection. That just shows how boring I really am.
What scares me these days is that I'm so vastly better off than I was a year ago. I'm healthier, happier, financially set up, etc etc etc. All those things that people complain about... I don't worry about. My job is great. My coworkers are great. My apartment is great. My car is great. My fucking life is great.
Scary? Maybe because I'm stupid. Maybe because I should worry more. Maybe I just convince myself that it's great.
Is it possible to brainwash yourself? What does it mean when that happens? Are you considered delusional? Dumb?
My commitment to you, my blog, is to write what I think, to never edit, to lay it all out. I want to see how I think. Will it work? Will it confuse me?
Will I delete this?
posted by Customized Chaos at 11:06 AM 